Even in Lukewarmness: fight on

 

 

I’ve always felt unique, like no other human in this world, since very little anything outside of me felt so unreal, it wasn’t loneliness per se, it wasn’t something I did or something I had like some sort of Guinness world record IQ, and all of us have felt like this, like the protagonists of our world, and it is due because of God’s Love.

We are His, we all felt like this throughout our lives, each one of us felt this way, the entire creation watching the most amazing human being live, each one of us throughout history, from Adam and Eve to Musk and each of those in the worst poverty or health situation, each of us, the center stage of everything, it isn’t because of our own strength, no… It’s due to God’s Love.

I remember a Chinese woman at my favorite Chinese restaurant in St. Peterburg Florida, I gave her my first book “The Treasure of the Heavens…”, when read the entire book, she told me that I was “lucky”, she shared the book with her family and they all got a conclusion: “lucky.”

Luck it is a big phrase in the Asian community, something in their culture essential for both spiritual and the day-by-day existence in society, but it’s not “luck”, what it is for her (even though she doesn’t realize it), for you and me, is that God love us so much, so much He even let His only begotten Son Jesus to suffer the most horrendous sufferings and death… for us.

Despite that absolute truth, we are full of ourselves, act selfish, sin hard and just close the door on our Lord’s face, all for the taste of a sinful moment, a second of pleasure, for worldly glory that stain our souls with the stain of perdition… I know, because I am a champion on such things, but I also know, our Lord doesn’t turn away His lovely face from the punches, He truly loves us.

A Testimonial: “I don’t know If I was awake or perhaps dreaming, I saw Almighty Father, He had someone in His hand, that someone was me, then the warmth of His Breath gave me life, I could feel that warmth for days and days, I haven’t felt such warmth in my entire earthly live with something or someone else, warmth so ethereal, beautiful and full of life… My Lord Jesus and the Holy Spirit appeared beside Him and they shared their happiness for creating me, I was allowed to see my Lord Jesus and the Holy Spirit face, but wasn’t allowed to see our Loving Father’s face.”

But I know this testimonial is also true for everybody else, as all souls are His (Ez 18:4).

Despite Their happiness I know who I am: a hard headed sinner, someone who has broken so many promises, who sins and sins and sins again… yet, I come back and come back to Him, even if sometimes my prayers taste like cardboard, my mind screams for something else, easily distracted by anything, despite that, I come back and again to fight on, the thing is NOT TO GIVE UP, even if the enemy is dressed in white, we must NEVER give up and remain in prayer, faithful and love Him.

Even in the brink of despair, in defeat and shame… Let’s COME BACK to Him, He is at the door, the fight is not entirely over, you are still in it to win ONLY through Him, even if we aren’t “feeling” our prayers, even if the enemy is within, distracting you, pulling you away with mental attacks, our soul needs our Lord, let us stand our ground, our Lord is coming.

Jesus promised us, that in the end He will wipe away our tears even if today He’s bleeding His knuckles banging at your heart’s door, He will never go away, He will never leave us alone, He always keep His promises.

Don’t get me wrong, if we don’t change our wicked ways perdition would be our end, even popes go to hell, popularity or being “lucky” is not a guarantee of salvation, only in Jesus there’s salvation if I end up in hell it’s because quitting the fight, abandoning Jesus, hell is for those who reject God and their lives end with such horrible stain, so don’t surrender, even if your prayers taste like cardboard like it happens to me all the time, your faith and love for God will bear fruits, so continue the Rosary, chaplets and embrace the sacraments, continue the path to sainthood, and remember, in the end: God wins!

“Oh, Mary conceived without sin, pray to your Son our Lord Jesus Christ to change the water of our lives into another color. Change Lord Jesus, like You did in Cana, the waters of our lives into wine, so our lives have color, the color of Your Love.” Amen.

A big hug in Jesus Christ