Four generations ago, my family fled the Canary Islands of Spain, you see, we were Jews, they were fleeing due to persecution, as they had the greatest Treasure ever: Jesus.
Jews shun their
friends, neighbors and even family if they embrace Christ, it is a normal
behavior to see amongst them, so coming to the Americas was the solution; at
the time, what my father told me was hard to believe, we were once Jews but not
anymore, what finally convince me was the tradition of my elder generation to
marry their cousins (my family did this a lot), such a nasty thing was and is
normal as of today in Israel, back then people didn’t view such as weird, that
convinced me, my father told me the truth about our ancestry, we were once
jews.
I am so happy
and lucky my family found Jesus and stopped the tradition of marrying within
the family, but one thing remained, at least with me, all throughout my life I’d
admired Israel, the Jews, not because of their supposed “superman DNA”, no… I
admired them because of the Love God had for them, as He came through for them again
and again with overwhelming Power, in my eyes that Love, that blessing, I
admired and still do today.
PERSECUTION is
one thing humans don’t recognize the first time it comes, rejection is one
thing, but persecution’s definition for me is ACTIVE AND ONGOING REJECTION by
one or more people; there’s many clever ways to persecute someone, sometimes it
starts with the lowest level of hate: mockery, sometimes it goes to mid-level
status with public repudiation or shunning, and the greatest form is with
violence.
Between a soft
core persecution and violence, the victim can suffer loss of self-esteem, even
your work stumbles due to the obstacles they put on you to earn a living,
sometimes mockery can be heard with laughter behind your back or in your face,
or the vandalization of what is yours, my father never told me what my elders
had to endure when they fled Spain, but I know too well how the pain goes when
even those who you love shun you.
Again, it is an
honor and joy to be Catholic, the beauty of Catholicism is to me and endless
sensation of marvel and awe, each day I learn something new about my Lord and
everything was handed down to me by the Apostles, Patriarchs, doctors of the
Faith, saints and Martyrs… Yet, I’ve seen the same persecution inside my
Church, at least, the mockery and shunning, that I don’t wish upon anyone.
I know I don’t
deserve my Lord, as a matter of fact, it puzzles me to this day why my Lord
loves me so much when I’m such a worm, anyways, when I embraced my faith after
almost dying studying medicine (my testimony here), Jesus told me
to tell the world about His Divine Mercy, I used to evangelize door to door in
a catholic nation and I was never was rejected, mocked or shunned.
When I moved to
USA and told people about my experiences with Jesus, I didn’t know it was strange
for people to have such mystical experiences, for example, my first time I’ve ever
heard the sweet voice of Jesus it happened while in the seminary, one day I was
inside the church and told Jesus within the tabernacle: “Lord You are
beautiful.” He replied back saying: “More beautiful is the Father.”
We were doing
some meditation around the seminary, I chose the tabernacle, afterwards we met
to share our experiences, when I told what happened to me the priest told me
that I did that on purpose because I wanted to be praised, my heart broke, I
didn’t reply back, I remained silent… Nevertheless, I thought anyone could have
mystical experiences, to me it’s like when you dream, everybody has dreams as
they sleep, that’s how normal it was to me even if it happened once or twice in
a million years.
Jesus never gave
me messages or miracles for the whole world to see, only that He saved me from
death, He talked to me very few times in my life, but I assure you, His Love
for me and for you has no bounds. When I did share some of my experiences through
the internet as my mission, He gave me went on, persecution was the main
constant thing happening, but my shock was that such was by Catholics.
I Remember one
day someone I respected very much called me a false prophet, never in my life I
heard such thing coming my way, and it was because I’d wrote an article about
Michael Voris having a double standard, him sacking everyone but not false
prophet Francis (here), that person publicly called me that name and I
cried for an entire day thinking that I have failed my Lord, I rolled below my
sheets in bed, crying and crying non-stopped; Gloria.TV kicked me out as I
wouldn’t call antipope Francis holy Father, or his holiness, they even wrote an
entire article about it (here) etc…
Some mocked me,
while some hackers planted viruses in my home computer and also at my job’s (my
boss noticed, he gave me a long rebuke for it), had to buy me another desktop. Some
people within my family called me religious nut and crazy behind my back and
even to my face, I lost my wife and my kids, none of them believed me.
One day I came
from work and I rushed to the bathroom, my son saw my worry face and went after
me, I took my shirt off and saw in the bathroom’s mirror 3 big red scratches
from top of my back to the mid-section, I asked my son: what do you see in my
back? He said you have many big red scratches in your back… He asked: what
happened? I told him: “the devil did this to me last night.”
My son stood
quiet, I know, he didn’t believe me despite my back seemed like if a Lion just
scratched me, that happened, but I suffer his unbelief… dismissal… and it
breaks your heart, as this wasn’t the only instance, some people called me
various names, some other had a constant campaign of warning people that I wasn’t
catholic all because I’ve said God have His countermeasures on people of other
religions who never heard the sweet sound of our Lord’s Name, Jesus to save
them, even though they haven’t been baptized, St Dismas and St Joseph weren’t
baptized and they are saints, so yes, the Lord has us to evangelize, and when
that doesn’t goes well, those who have no fault of their own finds PURGATORY,
if our Lord preached to the imprisoned souls (who weren’t baptized, this people
could find the same Divine Mercy there).
One person loved
to tell me how uncatholic I was, over and over again, all because I’d said WE
NEED TO FORGIVE the Jews like our Lord did while nailed to the Cross, their
tribe didn’t stop with their name calling and I blocked them and called them Canadians
(In my eyes Canada is nothing but a country full of enemies of God, yet Jesus
STILL knocks at their hearts door).
Look, I am no
saint, Lord knows I’m no butter cookie either, as a matter of fact I do think He
needed to send someone else instead of me, someone better, knowledgeable and with
lots of patience towards those who love to persecute… BUT persecution IS A GOOD
THING for those who suffer such, spiritually speaking it is a good thing, the
Lord refines you bit by bit like gold, sometimes you endure and humble yourself
and sometimes you whine a lot and resist for the detriment of only yourself, I
do whine a lot, I do resist my Lord’s sweet caress, hope I submit soon enough
and not be such a hot head.
The thing I
regret the most is losing my innocence thinking everybody had mystical
experiences, even if it was once in a blue moon, the mockery, shunning that
followed had me almost giving up.
It breaks my
heart how the Jews persecute Christians, BUT they are hostages themselves, the
synagogue of satan are their captors, the same ones who mocked, slashed and
killed our Lord, they have them in their grasp, they use people like they used
St Paul as he murdered many Christians, the same is true today as it was for my
family 4 generations ago, but after all of this, we pray for them and
whatever type of Canadians you and I have in our lives to find Jesus and
sainthood.
Also, a priest
who’ve never experience any type of persecution is NOT a good priest, he may be
popular and receive the praise of the world, but persecution is the only
parameter to indicate if he is doing his job well, if he is fulfilling our Lord’s
desires… If I could go back in time, the only thing I’ve would’ve
changed about my walk towards Golgotha, I would’ve love to know the heartbreak
such path would give, at least the knowing would’ve teach my heart to a smooth
fall, but hell is full of people who did the easy thing, there’s a lesson about
not knowing about such pain, I’m so lucky my Lord loves me and you so much, we
don’t deserve Him.
Pray for
those who persecute you, its alright if you
lash out sometimes, even St Paul and St Barnabas had huge and heated
disagreement, don’t follow those who change teachings for beautiful lies like false
prophet Francis and antipope Leo, YOU ARE THE CATHOLIC CHURCH, remain within
the faith and use your Rosary for the spiritual good of all, including
persecutors like the jews and those super Catholics I called Canadians even if
they’re from Ecuador, pray for our priests.
Sorry for the lengthy
post, a big hug in Jesus Christ. Amen
