I know nothing
at all, I admit that, I live my Catholicism according to my past, with the Holy
Spirit today and waiting for Jesus tomorrow.
I was born and
lived in the novus ordo, the mass many know today as the "normal"
mass, unfortunately such mass has nothing of being normal; I use to be charismatic,
then (when I got married), I briefly experimented being a catechumen, today God
knows what I have to go through to get to the Latin mass here in Florida, mass
which practically doesn’t exist in my beloved Dominican Republic.
Back then, I did
participated in various spiritual retreats, that’s when I met Jesus; It was in
the year 1992, the first of few times I’ve ever seen Jesus in my life, the
thing is, that despite having been raised in Catholic schools and my lovely
mother taught me tender prayers to God, for silly trifles within my life, one
day I’d decided to take my life that same year, again, I admit total ignorance,
I was very stupid about Catholicism, if I had known more, or believed more, I’ve
never would’ve decided to seek suicide.
God had to
intervene, one Saturday at 8 pm while they were praying for me with their hands
on my head, God came and I saw Him, to my surprise He wasn’t dead; now,
understand something my dear traditionalists, everyone has something wrong, the
charismatics (the vast majority), live their spirituality using their feelings instead
of faith, catechumens live through obedience to men and not always to God, the
traditionalists are famous of not turning the other cheek when they get hit in the
other, that is, they live to criticize, but that is not the bad part, their
problem is when they live to criticize others without love.
September 19,
1992 I saw God, Jesus, sitting on His throne, bigger than a building, still
wearing His crown of thorns, He told me (on me planning to commit suicide):
“Rafael, how can you do that? Don't you know I am your King? I’d cried and
cried, did so with great pain, regretting having decided to take my life on
November 22 of that same year.
From that moment
I no longer wanted to kill myself, from that point on, got better and tried to
live my Catholicism.
30 years have
passed since that time when I saw Jesus, my faith has gone through many good
and bad moments like any Catholic... walked my life seeking to satisfy God's
mandate by speaking about His Divine Mercy to whoever wanted to listen and the
thing I’d found the most was persecution, pain and personal loss. Despite all
this, I’ve continued every day looking for a way to satisfy our Lord, always
wondering, almost daily, if I was doing the right thing, each time asking God
himself to tell me like that time when He came and saved me, but God has better
and more important things to do than telling me every single little thing, my
best friend priest, who's now is in heaven, Fr. Edward Wal, always told me to
keep on going.
Within the internet
I’ve been insulted in various ways by people I don’t know personally, despite
trying to reach everyone through my words with love, the insults rained down,
even within my own family, I’ve lost the affection of some of my relatives, lost
my wife, my children are no longer engaging me, some of my childhood friends have
given me the cold shoulder and I honestly don't blame them, I’ve became
radioactive, or better said, like one lifelong friend told me: inflexible.
I’d prayed to
God: ‘please get me back what I’ve lost so far’, but no response, then I did
turn my back on God for a while and all I did was to make more and more
mistakes, in the end, I’ve returned to God and see, everything that had been
prophesied by holy people about Francis was being fulfilled in everyone's faces,
fulfilled stronger than ever, all the prayers I’ve made for the soul of Francis
for his conversion failed, Bergoglio has become, the false prophet predicted in
the apocalypse, he is Wormwood, the beast of the earth or simply: the false
prophet.
Years preaching
that Mercy without Justice was a fallacy, a mirage and by preaching such found
me only loss, insults, deaf ears and more than anything loneliness.
It doesn’t matter,
my hope right now is that WE CAN UNITE without having to point accusatory
fingers at each other, to tell the truth with love, denounce the lies with
courage and obey God rather than men.
Our pointless
battles must remain in the past, the desert awaits us, recently the false
prophet proclaimed to the world: ‘traditionalists are outside the Church’, as a
matter of fact, THAT was their main goal from the start, to steal the
structures for themselves, but thank God we have our faith. We must NOT obey,
we must NOT accept anything other than sound doctrine, NO pastoral solutions
far from the teachings of Jesus Christ, have the courage to continue despite
personal ruin and the obstacles the world will put in our way.
I don't deserve
to be included among cardinal Roche’s famous “keyboard warriors”, what's more,
I don't deserve anything good in this life for turning my back on my Lord Jesus
so many times; I'm just a Novus Ordo kid who fell in love with the Tridentine
mass despite knowing nothing of Latin, practically nothing of the law, I'm a
living ignorant, I don't have any ecclesiastical power, all I have is the sweet
words of Jesus whom promised to wipe away every tear from us.
There’s my hope,
that’s my happiness, I wait for that day anxiously, I wish it happened yesterday
already, sweet and mysterious words full of Divine Mercy... that same word which
has Truth and Justice designates Francis as a false prophet, remember? “…by
their fruits you shall know them.” If Bergoglio himself is a false prophet, as
his fruits speak loudly, and by fruits, I mean his erratic and grave actions towards
the souls of the flock, actions visible for all to see, then, if he is a false
prophet therefore, he is an antipope.
The
traditionalist forces of the Church have taken years to see this, years since
2013, many of us have been pointing this out, Francis is an antipope, a living
disaster destroying everything in his path, and he does it with beautiful
words.
Lie after lie,
blasphemy after blasphemy, heresy after heresy, little by little riding on the
horse of apostasy.
We MUST
persevere in the catholic faith, BUT do so without accusing those of the novus
ordo, the catechumenate, or even Emmaus fleeing towards the desert... we are
witnessing how the false church destroys anyone and everything while the world
applauds. I call for unity, I ask that we stop acting like them, we must
tell the truth without mocking anyone, seek to obey God and not men, the herd
is on fire and Bergoglio continues to pour gasoline, is there perhaps any holy priest
out there who wants to defend us? Is there a priest willing and able to become
a martyr? Will any bishop walk with us into the desert?
Bergoglio
abandoned Jesus, he left the teachings of the Apostles, he obviously left
Catholicism, it is time NOT to obey those who seek our spiritual ruin, WE HAVE
to obey God and NOT men, we are the Church fleeing into the desert, UNITED and
saying things with love, without mocking or accusing brethren just to satisfy ego.
Forgive me
Bergoglio, but you are a hopeless case for me, I can no longer keep praying for
your soul, it has become difficult for me to do it, it feels like pouring water
into a glass full of holes, now, please don't do like me, I'm a spiritual
illiterate, if you want continue and pray for his soul to see if he converts in
time, from now on I’ll only pray to God for the flock so it doesn’t fall away
and for priests not to fear becoming martyrs, for them to obey God and NOT men.
Come Lord Jesus. Amen.
A big hug in
Jesus Christ. Amen
